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REGARDING; THE BODIES IN MOTION
16 WEEK TRANSFORMATION CHALLENGE
It has
taken me a long time to try and come
up with a moving essay of why I
deserve a transformation, and I’ve
realized that I can’t, because to
deserve something, means that I had
to have done something worthy of
receiving this opportunity, and I
haven’t. I can however tell you the
reason(s) that I want a
transformation.
Fitness
had never been a big part of our
family growing up, although when my
brother and sisters and I were in
school we always excelled in
sports. It was just for fun though,
not a way of life, and when I was
but a child myself, at the age of
seventeen I gave birth to my first
child, more than eleven years ago.
By the time I was twenty, I had been
married for three years, and had
three children. When I became
pregnant with my first child (a
son), I was already twenty-five
pounds overweight according to the
not-so-inconspicuous charts in the
doctor’s office. After I gave
birth, I was then approximately
forty pounds overweight. Between
children I might have lost five to
ten pounds, but you know how it is!
I was
not just fighting against the weight
from my pregnancies though, I was in
a very unhappy marriage, that
ultimately failed. The fact that I
was so consumed by the way I looked
(to myself), and the way I thought
my husband perceived me, contributed
greatly to the fall of our
marriage. I was a stay-at-home mom,
and I didn’t have any friends and I
rarely saw my family. You see, I
never had any self esteem
whatsoever. I looked to other
people to make me happy and to
fulfill my needs, instead of getting
to know myself, and coming to terms
with who and what I was (am). I
have now been on my own with my
children for almost five years, and
although it has mostly been an
uphill struggle, I’ve really come to
know who I am and what is really
important to me as a mother and a
woman. Which brings me to why I
want a transformation.
As my
children grow and participate more
in school, I’m finding that the more
I push them to be active and to join
various sports, the more I realize
that I’m such a hypocrite. What do
I do to stay healthy? Nothing! I
don’t exercise, I don’t eat right,
and I feel downright awfull. I have
no energy, and I can’t wait for
bedtime! I’m repeating the same
pattern of my family growing up, and
I want to break the cycle! I want
to be able to run with my eleven
year old son and my nine year old
daughter and keep up with them! I
want to play basketball with my
children, and ride bikes, without
having to take a break every fifteen
minutes. I want to go to the beach
in the summer and not look like I’m
dressed for winter, but most of
all, I want to be a good example to
my children. Don’t get me wrong
though, only a little part of me
wants to do this for my children,
mostly I want to do it for myself.
I need to do this for my own
well-being and health. Now that
I’ve said that though, don’t think
that I would do it on my own,
because if I haven’t tried to do it
yet, I probably won’t do it at all.
You see, I need someone beside me
(or behind me, HA!HA!), to push me,
or encourage me, because I’m very
good at putting things off, unless
there is someone present watching my
every move. I can’t promise that I
would succeed if you granted me this
opportunity, because that would be
dishonest. I can’t promise
something with regards to my body,
because I don’t know what you have
in store for the fifty people who
are chosen, and it would probably be
the most difficult thing I’ve ever
had to do in my life. However, I
can promise you that I would give
one-hundred-and-ten percent of my
heart, soul, mind, and body!
Thank
you for considering me.
Sincerely, Tamilee Wills |
