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Date:

03 May 2003

Time:

21:32:48

Todays Journal

I'm a littel bit sore from yesterdays class, and I think I'll be even more sore tomorrow, but it's a good kind of pain. I was talking to the friend that I went to the class with, and we were both saying how we didn't want to have to wait until Monday to go again! We went to Costco today, and I had a hotdog. I know, that's bad, but I really wanted one, and I've been really good lately. It's a small cheat. But I'll try not to have one next time I go. I haven't really had a workout today either. I was hoping to get out for a walk, but we've been on the go all day. Tomorrow, definetely I'll do something. I bought a new shirt today, and it was a size large. I normally always buy extra large without even thinking about it, so it was nice to be in a smaller size. I'm not hiding behind my clothes so much anymore.

Date:

04 May 2003

Time:

22:10:54

Todays Journal

I tried to get out for a walk today, but it just didn't happen. Tomorrow I'll be going to step class again, and I'm really looking forward to it. I'm pretty sore in my upper body today due to the intense arm work from Friday's workout. It's funny that I'd be more sore 2 days later than the day after the workout!?! And then once I workout again the soreness is gone. Go figure!

My friend came by today and she gave me 3 pairs of pants (how nice is that!?!). The size 12 fit me! It's a little snug in the waist, but it fit so I think I'll wear them to the wedding. Hopefully they'll be a little less snug by then (May 17th). The size 11/12 jeans fit me! I couldn't believe it. I had to call my friend right away to let her know. We both thought maybe they'd fit in another month or so. The only pair that doesn't quite fit yet are a size 31 waist mavi jean. I can get all but the top two buttons done up. It's my goal to be wearing them in one month. Wish me luck.

I just can't believe I've gone down from a tight size 16 to a size 12 and it's only been 2.5 months! It really makes it easier to do what I'm supposed to. And my friend is really getting into being healthy as well, so that really helps me out. It's nice to have support!

Date:

05 May 2003

Time:

23:13:24

Todays Journal

Todays step class was brutal! Fifteen minutes into it I was wondering, why was I looking forward to this again?? But after a long 50 minute workout, then ab and leg work on top of that, I was glad that I had done it. It's just so hard while I'm doing it.

I wore my new pair of size 11/12 jeans today and it felt great! Too bad I didn't get to leave the house in them. Tomorrow I'll have to go for a walk with baby. We scheduled my next assesment today. It's next Wednesday the 14th. I'm a little nervous about it because I know I haven't lost as many pounds as last time. BUT I have lost inches, so that still counts. I try not to get too caught up in the numbers, but it's hard not to. I hope I can lose another 1-2 pounds before then (because I leave for the wedding 2 days later)!

Date:

07 May 2003

Time:

00:09:15

Todays Journal

I went out for an hour long walk today with a friend and our babies. It was so nice out, and the walk was great! I had a mini breakdown over supper tonight. I was just getting frustrated over what I couldn't have. My fiance wanted to order out, and he wanted a burger. In the end, I had a chicken breast and a salad with balsamic vinegar. I almost got a sub, but I knew I shouldn't have the extra carbs at night since I hadn't weight trained today. I'm still not getting in my weights. I'm doing really well with the cardio, but I know I need to work on building more muscle. If anyone has any ideas on how to find time for this with a baby at home, please send them my way :)

We're not going to be going to the wedding after all. That's dissapointing, since I was really looking forward to seeing everyone (and shopping for a new outfit).

Date:

07 May 2003

Time:

22:49:37

Todays Journal

Today feels like such a write off. I didn't get any exercise and I'm having a fat feeling day. I'm physically exhausted because I haven't gotten a good night's sleep in almost 2 weeks. My darling daughter is going through a phase where she kicks and turns all night, and since she sleep beside me, it keeps me awake a lot. Even my dentist noticed how tired I look today! That sure tells you something. I'm feeling really run down.

I couldn't eat a proper dinner either, since I was still frozen from the dentist visit. I had a protein shake with skim milk and a banana instead. I ate by plan today other than that, except I didn't get nearly enough water. I'm getting forgetful with my water intake. I hope tomorrow is a better day. I think I'm going to the gym with my friend again, at least I hope so. If not, I will definetely be working out. No (big) butts about it! haha

Date:

09 May 2003

Time:

00:40:30

Todays Journal

At the last minute, my workout got cancelled. My fiance had too much homework, so he couldn't watch our baby. I should have still done something, but my family just got here for a couple days visit, which is great! So tomorrow I know I'll be out and about all day so I'll have to plan to have food with me. Tonight I had 2 cookies. I know...I shouldn't have, but I did. I'm getting so much better. That's only the third cookie I've had in 2 months. And normally I would have had 3 or 4 instead of 1 or 2.

My sister and her boyfriend (a guy I went to school with) who haven't seen me in a few weeks both commented on how thin I'm looking. That's really nice. I honestly thought my mom and sister had bribed him to get him to mention something (that's how shocked I was) but they didn't. Compliments.......wow. I love that!

Date:

10 May 2003

Time:

23:44:40

Todays Journal

I didn't get a chance to write in the journal yesterday. My mom and sister came by for a suprise visit, so we were pretty busy. Pretty good day food wise.

Today I left with my mom to go to the coast for the week. I'm starting to get the night munchies too. I've noticed that over the past few days. I have to keep this short but I hope everyone has a strong week!

Date:

12 May 2003

Time:

01:29:33

Todays Journal

Today went fairly well. I'm noticing that I'm not eating quite enough during the day, but then having a snack at night. I suppose it sort of balances out.....but I'm sure it's not that great of an idea. Also, I didn't get enough to drink today, especially since I spent the day outdoors. I'll have to try to do better tomorrow.

Date:

12 May 2003

Time:

23:39:16

Todays Journal

I had some strawberry rhubard pie after dinner tonight. Then I got on the treadmill for 10 minutes. It's an old manual thing, so that took a lot of work. I went out for about a fourty minute walk today too. It was nice to get out, and I made sure to get in a few hills too.

Date:

15 May 2003

Time:

00:14:17

Todays Journal

Yesterday and today have been really laid back. I'm still at my mom and dads house, and it's very hard to resist snacking here. I'm still doing pretty well, but I've had a few treats (although they've been low fat, I still feel guilty about it). I haven't really been exercising here, the treadmill doesn't really work. I've been on my feet most of the day though, where at home I would be sitting on the couch. And today I made more of an effort to drink water. When I'm here, I forget about my water. It's most likely because I stay so busy while I'm here. I'm off to bed early tonight because I've got to try to get caught up on my sleep while I'm here. It's my birthday on Sunday, and I actually am looking forward to having my photo taken! Hopefully we'll go out for dinner and maybe share a dessert, because usually my fiance gets me a cake, and I don't really want a whole one around the house. Plus, that's a nice excuse to go out! :)

Date:

16 May 2003

Time:

00:46:36

Todays Journal

I had cake again today. Less of it, and it is low fat because we didn't use any oil, but I still had some. I did better today, but I had 2 cappucinos. They're homemade so I know they're not too bad for me, but it's been so cold here, and it's like a comfort thing for me. I mowed my parents lawn today (which isn't the least bit small) so that was a descent workout. My assesment is scheduled for Tuesday, so I'm really nervous. I know my results won't be what they have been. I feel really full and bloated tonight (after the cake and cappucino), so hopefully that will help me out with choosing not to eat it tomorrow. And I've had a bad week workout wise. I'm starting to feel a bit like I"m sliding down the hill again. I need to get back on my game. I'm hoping to get in a good workout when I get home on Saturday. I'm sorry that I had to miss out on the group meeting too. It seems they are usually when I'm out of town.....so it's just my luck. I'd still really like to meet everyone.

Date:

17 May 2003

Time:

01:25:03

Todays Journal

Another day with no workout. I'll be home tomorrow, so I'm really looking forward to working out after I get there. I'm actually itching for a workout so bad that I dreamed about lifting weights last night! Must be my subconscious reminding me....you're slacking! Aaahhhh.

I just got back from drinks with a couple of friends I haven't seen in a long time. I only had one beer and one glass of wine. Considering the atmosphere of the place, I think I did pretty well. I only have maybe one or two drinks a month.

Well, I've got to get up early to take my daughter to her first parade, and then head home for a couple days....so I hope everyone has a great long weekend!

Date:

18 May 2003

Time:

11:37:44

Todays Journal

Saturday May 17th

I'm back home today (only for a couple of days though). It will sure be nice after this week when my fiance is finally finished his apprenticeship and schooling. That's why I've been away so much, to give him time to study. After supper tonight we went out for about a half hour walk and it was really nice. We would have gone for longer, but we felt a few rain drops and didn't want to get stranded in the rain with the our baby. Tomorrow is my birthday, so I know I'm going to cheat a little bit, but I'm going to get on the bike first thing in the morning!

Date:

19 May 2003

Time:

13:05:06

Todays Journal

Sunday May 18th

Today's my birthday and I haven't felt this good in years! Thanks BIM for the warm wishes! I jumped on the bike first thing this morning, and it felt really good. I weighed myself too, and I'm down another 2 pounds. I was really worried that I'd gained 5 while at mom and dads place, so that was really good to see. I had a cheat day today. I had a few drinks, and some food that I shouldn't have, but I'm okay with that. Tomorrow it's back on track.

Monday May 19th

I felt really full and bloated all night last night. That'll teach me for going over board. I think it's good for me to feel like that once in a while. It lets me know how far I've come, and makes me realize that it's not okay to feel like that all the time. I'm going to go for a tan today and pick up my mom at the ferry. She's coming over to watch my baby so that I can go to my assesment tomorrow.

I'm a little nervous about the upcoming assesment. And I'm excited at the same time. I hope my results are good. I need to put more time into weight training. My fiance is done school next week, so then it will be much easier for me to have some time to workout. Hope everyone had a great long weekend!

Date:

20 May 2003

Time:

23:42:41

Todays Journal

It was assesment day today, and I'm really happy with my results. I'm down 12 pounds since last time, and I'm down another 6% in body fat! It was really good to hear the positive comments that Neaghn had for me. I can't wait to see my progress pictures once they are up on the site. It's hard to notice a difference day by day, but photos really help things hit home.

I didn't eat enough today. I was out all day, and travelling back to my mom and dad's house, and it just didn't happen. I've got to try to get in all my meals tomorrow.

Date:

21 May 2003

Time:

19:48:52

Todays Journal

Today has been an overall good day. I helped my sister move her entire bedroom, so that was a bit of work, and I did pilates. I forgot how hard pilates can be. I've been eating really well today too.

I tried on some of my sisters clothes (she's much smaller than me, and younger so she's got cool clothes!) and found a few things that fit. For the past two years I couldn't even bother looking let alone wearing anything. I'm really hoping that by the end of this challenge I can fit into more of her clothes. That will be a good marker for how far along I get.

Date:

23 May 2003

Time:

22:44:50

Todays Journal

I did pilates again today. I'm still sore from doing it the other day. I skipped yesterday. I'm feeling so tired lately. I haven't been getting enough sleep because of my baby. She really keeps me busy.

I'm sort of looking forward to going home and getting back into my routine. I miss going to the fitness classes and tanning. I think as a treat to myself I might get my hair highlighted later in June. I hope everyone has a great weekend!

Date:

26 May 2003

Time:

00:37:34

Todays Journal

I didn't get a chance to write a journal yesterday. We were pretty busy most of the day outdoors. My dad and I spent some quality time woodworking (I'm making candle holders!) so that was good. My eating is getting back on track too.

Today we again spent most of the day outdoors (I mowed the lawn again for an hour). It was actually nice outside so we went out for a drive around in dad's boat. It was my daughters first boat ride. I almost can't believe she'll be 9 months old tomorrow! Time goes by so quickly. The past two months have gone by so quickly. I'm so happy to have made such positive changes in my life. It's really helped me to look at life differently.

Date:

27 May 2003

Time:

00:40:56

Todays Journal

I didn't really get too much exercise today except walking around in the yard with my baby for about 45 minutes. I was doing things all day, so I wasn't sitting around, and I ate by plan. Actually it was a productive day since I finished making the candle holders that my dad and I started the other day. I'm really impressed with them!

I visited my grandparents today and I haven't seen them in about 5 months. They were very impressed with what I've done with myself. That was really nice to hear. Tomorrow we're heading home. I can't wait to get back into my usual workouts. But I'm really going to miss having my mom around, she's really helpful with my baby and it's just nice to have someone (else) to talk to during the days.

Date:

29 May 2003

Time:

23:31:54

Todays Journal

Well I just got home from tonights meeting, and I'm stoked about this challenge all over again. Last night my fiance and I went for a walk and I expressed to him just how important this challenge is to me. I made a commitment to myself last night to finish these final weeks as strong as I can. I want to do the best that I can with the time that I have left (and going forward of course!). Tonight John reconfirmed everything for me. When he singled me out I was so proud. He hasn't even seen me since the beginning and he noticed the changes that I've made. When I got home and told my friend about that, I was tearing up a bit because that's how much those little comments meant to me. I hope John knows how grateful that I am to have been able to be a part of this journey! It blows me away how dedicated he and his staff are to helping us succeed. I've even been thinking a little lately about continuing on with this after the challenge ends, and maybe even competing when I'm in good enough shape for it.

Date:

30 May 2003

Time:

23:39:28

Todays Journal

Today came and went so quickly. I didn't get in my exercise today as my daughter is teething again and when she's awake she's rarely on her own. I spend so much time now chasing after her, childproofing as I go, since she's crawling all over the place now. So I get a lot of exercise just chasing her around all day, and by the end of the day I'm exhausted but I'm just itching to do a solid 'real' workout. I'm going to do my weights tomorrow. I'm coming down with a cold too. It's been creeping up on me for the past 2 days, but I'm trying to fight it. I think I've just been under too much stress and I'm not getting enough sleep. It catches up to me. I ate really well today, except I had pork again for dinner. It was defrosted, and I waited too long between lunch and dinner, so that was the quickest thing and I was really hungry. I'm actually looking forward to a nice chicken & veggie dinner tomorrow night. I really hope I can get some much needed rest tonight!

Date:

01 Jun 2003

Time:

23:58:37

Todays Journal

Saturday May 31st

Today definetely didn't go as planned. I didn't have time for me, which was dissapointing for me. We spent the day running errands and cleaning the house before my mother in law came. I ate well today, except again I let too much time go between my meals, so I didn't eat enough. And I had some drinks tonight. My next door neighbour had his annual birthday bash, and my mother in law babysat, so I finally got to go out and have a good time. It was really nice, but I know I had too much sugar because it was in the drinks.

Sunday June 1st

I woke up this morning feeling like absolute crap. Now I remember why I don't drink. I think I should have stopped at 2. But I'm glad in a way because it reminded me of why I don't really drink anymore. I don't think my body reacted well, partly because I'm not used to the alcohol, and partly because of so much sugar. After I had my breakfast I felt so much better, but I'm still tired. It was another day on the go today. My daughter is crying for sleep, so I've got to keep this short tonight.

Date:

02 Jun 2003

Time:

23:07:40

Todays Journal

I went out for about a 40 minute walk in the sunshine today, and I did gardening for about half an hour so I feel like I actually accomplished something today. I didn't get in my weights again, so I'm dissapointed in myself for that. I hate always saying I'll do it tomorrow, but I want to tomorrow. I need to plan to make time for it. I ate well today and actually wore a pair of jeans that I couldn't do up a month ago! I'm looking forward to a nice long walk again tomorrow. I think today was an overall good day.

Date:

04 Jun 2003

Time:

22:53:47

Todays Journal

Today was an overall good day. I discovered today that I'm able to do "real" pushups instead of the girly ones! Yeah! The last time I tried that I basically collapsed on myself. I'm going to make it a goal to do one more every day. I did pilates today for strength training, and it was nice to get that extra boost of energy in my day. I let a little too much time go by between lunch and dinner, so at dinner time I was so hungry I considered ordering a pizza. BUT I DIDN'T! It's hard to make great choices when you're pressed for time, and it's easier to make excuses. I completely prefer having my meals planned out. I think I'm going to sleep better tonight knowing that I was more active today.

Date:

05 Jun 2003

Time:

23:19:54

Todays Journal

I didn't get my workout today, and I'm feeling really bad about it. I know feeling bad doesn't make it any better, but that's just the way it is. It was so hot that I couldn't muster up the energy. My baby is crying for bed now, so this is a short entry. I'll have more to say tomorrow!

Date:

06 Jun 2003

Time:

22:12:30

Todays Journal

Well, after I wrote last nights journal, I felt so crappy about blowing off my workout that I did one. After I put my baby down to sleep, I did crunches, pushups, squats, hamstring curls, and biceps! I slept better knowing that I'd done something.

This morning, first thing, I jumped on the bike. It's been so long since I've done that, and it felt great to have done something. I need to start doing daily again. I was shopping with a girlfriend tonight, and I decided to try to find a bathing suit (new pool + new body = new suit!). For the first time in a long time I was quite happy with how it looked. I think I'm going to go back and buy it tomorrow (along with a backless shirt to show off my lower back tattoo which I haven't done in years!). I'm excited about bathing suit shopping, so you know there's been changes, haha. I'm having a really good day today.

Date:

09 Jun 2003

Time:

00:05:47

Todays Journal

Saturday June 7th

Today was a pretty good day. I ate well, felt great, and went for a nice long walk after dinner. I've been thinking a lot lately about how I lived before the challenge compared to now. I really feel that this challenge has changed my outlook on my health. I look at food differently now, and the healthy choices just seem normal to me. I have learned so many useful ideas from the BIM team, and I'm so grateful for that.

Sunday June 8th

Today I saw another friend that I hadn't seen since before I began this challenge. Right away he commented that I look 10 years younger (and a lot lighter). I guess because I see myself every day it's hard for me to gauge my progress, but for someone who hasn't seen me in months, the difference that 35 pounds makes is quite noticeable. And it's not just a physical difference. I feel so much more confident in everything I do. I walk with my head up now, I'm so much happier and less stressed out. My fiance, baby and myself went out for a nice long walk after dinner again tonight.

Date:

10 Jun 2003

Time:

00:04:36

Todays Journal

I was able to get in a little bit of core strength training today, which was good. Also, I got to spend a bit of time in my garden so I got a bit of exercise there, not much, but a little is better than none right? This is a very hectic week for me. I've got appointments all week, and my mom is coming to visit tomorrow evening for a few days. I know at least I'll get out for more walks with mom here. I've been doing my core strength work before bed and I think it's helping me to sleep a little bit better. Anything to improve my sleep is definetely welcome! Yesterday my friend came over and gave me quite a few more pairs of pants and a couple shirts. It's so nice not only to be able to fit into her clothes, but to not have to buy a whole new wardrobe. It's expensive losing weight! haha But I'm definetely not complaining! :)

Date:

12 Jun 2003

Time:

00:05:39

Todays Journal

Tuesday June 10th

Not really much to write about today. I ate well, but I didn't get my workouts in. I'm just exhausted today. My mom came over for a few days, so it's really nice to have her around.

Wednesday June 11th

Well tonight I had some whole wheat bread with dinner which I probably shouldn't have, but it's a rare occasion when I do. I went for a brisk half hour walk afterwards too. It was great to get outside for a walk. We're going to be doing some more walking tomorrow too.

I talked with Phyllis tonight to book my next assesment. I think I'm the most nervous about the upcoming one than any of the previous ones because I know this challenge is coming to an end. I really want to finish it up with a bang. On a good note, I wore a pair of size 10 pants today!!! I felt great when they fit. I'm hoping to go shopping soon........ :) (hey, a girl can dream...)

Date:

14 Jun 2003

Time:

17:35:12

Todays Journal

Thursday June 12th

Not a whole lot going on today. It's my only day this week without any appointments so I'm enjoying just doing what I feel like doing. I got out for a nice walk today with my mom and my daughter. I got a bit of gardening done, and I feel pretty good today (other than being super nervous about going to court tomorrow).

Friday June 13th

Well, today was the big day in court. That's one more stress that I don't have to deal with anymore! Yeah! I'm in a great mood today, although I'm very tired from being stressed out all week. Worrying takes a lot out of a person. My mom left today so it's back to normal around here. I'm finding that I have a few more treats when mom's around. But I still didn't overdo it and I'm still happy with how I'm progressing. I'm looking forward to the next group meeting next week. And then the week after that is my assesment. Wow, time sure flies!

Date:

16 Jun 2003

Time:

15:05:53

Todays Journal

Saturday June 14th

I started my day out by going downtown to try out one of those new "instant tan" booths. It's pretty cool actually. Tonight I'm going out with my girlfriends for the first time since I got pregnant. I've saved some extra calories for tonight since I know I'll be having wine. But, I'll also be dancing a lot tonight so it's not all bad. I'm really looking forward to it!

Sunday June 15th

Wow, I over did it a bit last night, but I had an amazing time! It was so nice to go out and just get to be me for a while. But I'm paying the price today, that's for sure. I'm having some huge salt cravings too today. I just found out that I'm going to be heading back up to my moms for a few days tonight. One of my relatives isn't doing well, so we are making a trip over to visit. This is going to be a pretty stressful visit I think.

Monday June 16th

Well, I'm at my moms now. I'm still feeling extremely bloated from the other day. My clothes are still fitting good, but it's just that feeling that I don't like. I'm going to mow the lawn today so that'll definetely burn off some extra calories. Tomorrow I'm heading over to Powell River for visiting my relatives so I hope that goes well. I can't believe this challenge is almost over! I'm not sure how many weeks are left but I'm sure it's not many.

Date:

19 Jun 2003

Time:

00:22:48

Todays Journal

Tuesday June 17th

I was gone almost all day today over to Powell River to visit my relatives. It was quite hard to get enough to eat today, and I was quite hungry last night. I had some fruit before bed. Maybe my body was craving the sugar because I let my schedule get out of whack.

Wednesday June 18th

Today I ran into someone I hadn't seen in months, and the first thing he said was "wow, stacey, where did you go?". That was cool. I'm not seeing much change in myself lately, and the pounds are staying fairly consistent, so it's nice to know it's still working. I'm going to go shopping this weekend and buy myself my clothing reward. Way back when we began this, one of my rewards that I set for myself if I could get into size 12 pants was that I'd buy some new clothes. Well, I've been wearing that size for a little while now, and I think it's about time I went shopping a little bit. :) I'm heading back home tomorrow so that I can attend the meeting on Friday, so life will be getting back to normal now.

Date:

21 Jun 2003

Time:

01:04:35

Todays Journal

Wow, I'm so glad that I went to the meeting tonight. I really wish I'd made it to all of the earlier ones. John really has a way of getting you pumped. So much of what he had to say tonight made me think, and a lot of it was really true for me. Now I need to sit down and figure out my goals for after this challenge is over. What do I want out of the next sixteen weeks? That's a good question, one that I'll be thinking about a lot in the next few days.

It was really nice to hear John talk about how even if you don't make a healthy choice once in a while, it really doesn't set you back. You just need to be aware. That's so true for me. This challenge has given me such a good start, and I'm excited to see where life will take me.

Date:

21 Jun 2003

Time:

22:28:54

Todays Journal

Today was great. I started out my day on the bike, and that set my mood for the rest of the day. I felt great and full of energy. We went with some friends down to the Jazz fest, and spent a lot of time wandering around. I took off my jacket when I got too warm, and that's something I wouldn't have done 12 weeks ago. And I felt 100% more confident afterwards than I ever used to. It was awesome to spend the day out doing something. Then we went for dinner, and I had chicken salad. I wasn't even tempted by the big steak fries, which is a first for me. So yeah, overall today has been great for me. I hope everyone else is having a fabulous weekend!

Date:

23 Jun 2003

Time:

18:06:29

Todays Journal

Sunday June 22nd

I didn't get much accomplished today that I'd planned on, but sometimes life just goes like that. Roll with the punches, right? My fiance planned dinner tonight. Spinach and artichoke dip. That idea didn't sit very well with me, so I walked down to Subway and got salad. I did have a little bit of the dip, but I sure wasn't going to have that as my main meal. I tried to explain to him that it's just not really worth it to me because I'd have to work so hard to burn it off. Moderation isn't really his strongest quality sometimes. Oh well, it was a nice gesture, and we watched a movie with some friends tonight so all in all it was an okay day today. Tomorrow is assesment time, so I'm excited and nervous at the same time.

Monday June 23rd

Assessment day!!! Well, I just got back from my assesment with Neaghn, and I'm so happy! I'm down another 5% in body fat, and 11 pounds :) I was actually very surprised to see those numbers this time. So far that makes a 38 pound loss in only 12 weeks. If someone would have told me months ago that I could do that, there's no way I would have believed them. I feel way more confident and strong as a person now than I have in years. I'm curious to see the pictures from this session because my bikini is fitting so loosley on the bottom that I'm not sure how much longer it'll stay up for, but I'm not sure if it'll show in the photos or not. Time to get a new one!

Date:

24 Jun 2003

Time:

23:29:49

Todays Journal

I'm feeling very run down today. My fiance isn't feeling well, so he's been home today and hasn't been able to help out much the our daughter, so I've been pretty much run off my feet all day long. I'm going to do some pilates after I journal to relax me before bed. I just spoke with Phyllis and I'm going on Friday to pick up my new plan, so I'm excited about that. It's really nice to see the numbers and compare to when I first began this challenge. Tomorrow's going to be a busy day too but I'm hoping to jump on the bike first thing in the morning, baby permitting. I am unbelievably thirsty tonight, so I've been drinking water like crazy. Until tomorrow...

Date:

26 Jun 2003

Time:

00:50:06

Todays Journal

Well, I have to say that I'm a little dissapointed in myself today. I put off doing my cardio this morning because time was extremely tight, and I told myself I'll definetely do it later today. Well, it turned out to be a super busy day and I still haven't done it. So just like last night, it will be pilates before bed again. I slept well last night after doing my pilates, but I still really wanted to do some cardio today. Well, I need to learn from my errors, and not only plan my cardio and workouts, but actually do when it's planned. If I don't get in some cardio soon, I'm going to go crazy. It really helps me to relax, and I feel like I really need that lately. Tomorrow is another hectic day, but it shouldn't be nearly as bad as today, so I'll do my cardio before breakfast. I went out and got lots of groceries tonight, so I'm set for eating for a while. We were pretty much out of everthing for the past few days, so I've been having more protein shakes and tuna. I'm really looking forward to following my plan again because for the past few days I haven't eaten enough. I think that's probably got something to do with why I'm feeling burnt out. Well, now that the food is in the house, I'll do much better. Okay, it's off to do some exercises now, so goodnight!

Date:

26 Jun 2003

Time:

23:18:56

Todays Journal

I woke up this morning before baby, so I took advantage of the opportunity to get in a good workout before she woke up. I felt great all day because of it too. I didn't get enough to eat today though. I need to work on that tomorrow. I was looking forward to having a nice healthy dinner, but everyone decided chinese was the way to go, so I had a little bit. I'm still hungry so I'm having an apple now. Tomorrow I go to pick up my new plans, so that's cool. I'm also getting my mini swiss ball tomorrow so that'll help with my squats. The other day I started setting my goals for the next sixteen weeks. It's a bit harder to do now, because I'm not sure about the numbers, but I know generally where I want to be by the end (if that makes any sense). Well, time to put baby to bed...until tomorrow!

Date:

29 Jun 2003

Time:

22:38:35

Todays Journal

Saturday June 28

Well today was beyond hectic for me. I did jump on the bike this morning, and started out with interval training which I actually really like! That was a great start to my day, although it wasn't a good day overall. One good thing though, was that we picked up our homestay student who will be with us for a month. There's a communication barrier, so I have to be creative in trying to talk with her, but it's all good. I'm sick today. I've been feeling run down lately and it's finally caught up with me. I've been putting it off for weeks so I guess it's about time.

Sunday June 29

I am so tired today. I went out for a quick walk with a friend earlier so that was nice. I spent the afternoon helping my neighbour build a new fence between our yards. I was up super late last night with friends over, and it was an early day today. But I had a good time, so it was worth it.

Date:

03 Jul 2003

Time:

00:11:20

Todays Journal

Tuesday July 1st

Happy Canada Day! Today was gorgeous and I spent it outdoors, but it wasn't the greatest day for me. We took our exchange student and her friends down to Granville Island, walked around Vancouver, saw the Jazz fest, and had lots of fun. Actually we walked around for over 3 hours, so I definetly got my exercise today! Food was the main problem. My fiance and I had an argument as we were trying to get food, so I lost my appetite. Because of that I had only a low fat muffin to tide me over for the 10 hours between breakfast and dinner. I know, that's horrible. I felt so physically drained (not to mention emotionally) by the end of the day that I just felt like giving up. It's been a very stressful week for me. I've been feeling at my wits end a lot lately and it's really taking its toll on me. Plus, it doesn't help being sick. Tomorrow I will do better.

Wednesday July 2nd

I just got back from a half hour walk. I just found out that my neighbour's cat (who practically lives at my house too) was hit by a car a few days ago. We all thought (hoped) he had just wandered away. It's really sad because where it happened is only 1 block away from where my little cat was hit only 8 months ago, on the same street. They were best buddies, very alike, so this is almost ironic in a twisted sort of way. So that's not helping with my emotional basket case state that I've been in lately. On a better note, I did much better with my diet today. I ate everything that I was supposed to, not skipping any meals. I went shopping a few days ago and proudly purchased my fist pair (in a LONG time) of size 10 pants. I love them, and I've gotten so many compliments already. I'll have more to say tomorrow, tonight I need the rest.

Date:

04 Jul 2003

Time:

15:06:43

Todays Journal

Thursday July 3rd

Today was an overall good day for me, however it ended badly. I suppose it was a lack of planning on my part, but I ended up having pizza for dinner. I didn't want to cook and I had no help with my baby, so I got fed up and ordered it for everyone. I did not eat what I normally would have, and I made healthier choices, but the fact remains. I went to bed not long after (BAD) feeling fat, full, and bloated. I hate that feeling. I guess I can look at it as a lesson. If I'd had dinner planned, I wouldn't have strayed from it.

Friday July 4th

Well, I tried not to want more pizza today (leftovers should have left the house). But I broke down and had 2 pieces for my mid morning snack. To compensate, I've already done a good workout for my upper body, and when baby wakes up we're going out for a long walk. Also, tonight I'm going out dancing for a few hours. I don't know why I couldn't just leave well enough alone. I'm very dissapointed in myself today. I guess every once in a while it's okay to stray but I have to get right back on track. I've already got dinner planned for tonight (salad!).

Date:

08 Jul 2003

Time:

14:40:05

Todays Journal

I haven't written in a few days because I've been lost on my emotional roller coaster ride. The past few days, even weeks have been some of the most stressful I've been through in a long time. So because there's been so much going on, my journals have been taking a back seat for a few days. I'm happy to report that I'm back on track with my eating, and I've been exercising a lot lately. I really like my new plan. I've been going on some very long walks lately. Yesterday I spent the day with my girlfriends and baby at the beach and we walked around for hours. It was great! I can't believe this challenge is almost over. I'm amazed at how much my life has changed during this journey. I know I'll never go back to the way it was before. I also know that this journey isn't over for me. I have new goals and I'm so excited to think about where I'll be in another 16 weeks. Entering this challenge was the best thing that I could have done, and I almost didn't do it. I'm so glad that I did.

Date:

13 Jul 2003

Time:

21:22:01

Todays Journal

Wednesday July 9th

I went shopping today! I finally bought that new bathing suit I wanted. Can't wait to spend some time at the beach now! I also bought a backless tank top, which up until now I couldn't wear comfortably. I bought green eye shadow too, so that shows that I'm not trying to hide as much anymore. I've been trying more bold things because I'm not the self conscious person I used to be. Don't get me wrong, I'm by no means the most outgoing person you'll meet, but for me these are good changes.

Thursday July 10th

Well tonight was great! I went out for dinner and drinks with some former colleagues that I hadn't seen in a long long time (a year for some). They were blown away by my progress, and one didn't even recognize me at first! I'm a far healthier person than they've ever known me to be. It was so nice to get out and to see everyone. Today rocked!

Friday July 11th

Not much to report on today. My fiance and I went for a nice long walk. I love summer now. I was reading my essay the other day (the ones we wrote for entrance to this challenge) and I talked about how I dread the summer months because I have less clothes to cover up with. Well I don't dread them any more. I welcome them! Bring it on.

Saturday July 12th

I spent over an hour gardening today. That's a lot more work than it looks like! Today we were going to go out and spend the day wandering around Steveston, but we got rained out. We went out for dinner, and while everyone else had pizza, I enjoyed my chicken salad. I find that if I'm really craving it, a bite or two will satisfy that craving. Then I don't have to feel guilty about eating it, and I can feel better knowing that it smells and looks better than it tastes usually!

Sunday July 13th

This morning was my turn to sleep in a bit, so I really enjoyed that. Then, I jumped on the bike. I felt great after that, except that all day I've been noticing that my hamstrings are extremely sore. I couldn't figure out what I'd done, then I remembered about yesterdays gardening. I guess I was working harder than I thought! I should do that more often. Tonight I found out that tomorrow the girlfriend whose wedding I missed in May is coming down to see us for the night. We haven't seen eachother since grade 11, when I was sixteen. Actually, she came down once before, about 2 years ago, and I hid in the basement. I wouldn't go upstairs to see her because I felt so self conscious about the weight that I'd gained. It really hurt both of us when I did that, so now I'm so happy that I'll be seeing her. I can't wait!

I guess it's time to start on my 1000 word essay. There are so many things I have to say that I know I'm going to have to re-write it a dozen times or more.

Date:

18 Jul 2003

Time:

00:32:01

Todays Journal

Tuesday July 15th

Today was a pretty great day. I went with my former best friend, her new husband and my daughter down to Stanley Park for a bit of a walk. Then it was off for a tour of Metrotown, and more walking. It was just like old times, and it was so great to catch up. She's really impressed with how I look too, so I explained about BIM to her. I think this time we'll stay in touch, so I'm super happy today.

Wednesday July 16th

My darling daughter decided today that she's only taking one small nap. So today has been pretty hectic. My company left last night, and I was sad to see them go, but glad that we caught up on the last 6 years. I found out today that last night my brother and his girlfriend were beat up pretty badly in a home invasion, so I'm kind of depressed and upset about that today. I'm feeling very run down, and stressed out about everything so I'll keep this short and sweet. I need some extra sleep tonight.

Thursday July 17th

Well, I didn't exactly get any extra sleep. Baby woke up early today since she went to bed early last night. Today we went for family photos, and a nice long walk after dinner. I'm feeling much better today.

Date:

21 Jul 2003

Time:

00:57:34

Todays Journal

Friday June 18th

It's boys night out tonight, so I'm staying home watching a movie with one of my girlfriends. It's been a pretty good day overall. I went for a nice walk today. I really love getting out for walks but it gets hard to do with a little one when it's scorching hot out. Maybe more evening walks are the answer. I'm almost done writing my "final thoughts" essay. I just want to make sure I've said everything that I want to say. This challenge has meant the world to me and I want to get that across in my essay.

Saturday June 19th

Well, tonight's it's the girls turn to go out. I'm taking my homestay student and some of her friends out for a night on the town to show them what night clubs are like in Canada. A few of my girlfriends are going as well, so I'm looking forward to a fun night out. It's been a pretty hectic day. I spent a few hours at the mall, but I scored some wicked bargains, so that's always good!

Sunday June 20th

Today was just awesome. We went with my neighbour and his girlfriend to the zoo. My daughter loved seeing the animals, plus we got to walk around all day so I got my exercise. A win win situation! We had a blast, and afterwards we went to a friends house for swimming and a bbq. That's something I wouldn't have done before this challenge. Hang out in a bathing suit when there's people around?? Forget it! Well, not now. I had a great time and I didn't really worry much. I think we're going to have to do that kind of thing more often.

Date:

23 Jul 2003

Time:

20:30:26

Todays Journal

Well I just realized that I put June on my last three journal entries. Oops, sorry! I'm going to go for a walk tonight once it cools down. I spoke with Phyllis today and scheduled my final assesment for Saturday. I'm excited to see the final numbers but I'm nervous too. I really find that getting the measurements and the numbers every month helps me, so I think I need to continue to do this even after the challenge. I've been really tired for the past few days. I think it's mostly because of the heat. It's hard on my baby, and when she's having a hard time it's much more difficult for me. So yesterday and today I took a nap with her. I'm starting to get a cold I think, so I've got to try to catch up on my rest again. It seems like I've been saying that a lot lately. Yesterday was so hot that I really didn't get much done except house work, fun stuff! In this heat, it's easier for me to exercise at night once it cools down a bit. I've got my essay all done, so I'm braving it and sending it in tonight. I'm nervous about that, mostly I think because it makes the ending of this challenge so final. I guess I just wish it could continue to go on like it has. Well, I suppose it can, and will. That's my part now, and I'm okay with that. Finally.

Date:

26 Jul 2003

Time:

15:32:07

Todays Journal

Well, this is it folks, the end of this portion of the journey. I've had some ups and downs, and it's been a blast! I just got back from my final assessment with John. I'm so happy to report that I'm down another 8 pounds since last time, and I'm down to 16% body fat, which is more than twice as low as when I began this challenge. I'm encouraged to move forward now, and I can't wait to see everyone at the closing ceremonies in a few weeks. I know I've changed my life, and I'm sure that many more have as well. From the bottom of my heart, thank you Bodies 'N Motion. Thank you John for all your wisdom and encouragement, it's meant the world to me. Phyllis and Neaghn, you've both been so great throughout this challenge!

-Stacey

May 2 

Thank god it’s Friday!!  I’ve been waiting for the weekend all week.  I’ll finally get to spend some time with my fiancé since he’s super busy all week with school.  I went to the cardio box class today, and it was awesome!  Hard, but awesome.  We always do killer ab work at the end.  I really like the instructor, she makes it fun.  It’s really good to just get out of the house for a while and workout.  After my tan, my friend and I were walking back to the car when I heard a baby talk right behind me.  It sounded so familiar but I thought there’s no way it’s mine.  After the baby made another noise, I just had to turn around to see, and it was mine alright.  My fiancé had put her in the stroller and rollerbladed out to meet me after tanning!  That was a nice surprise.  He is doing pretty well with eating how I do, at least at night.  We just finished a wicked chicken salad with tons of different veggies and balsamic vinegar for dinner, and he didn’t even complain that there were no potatoes or pasta.  I’m feeling a lot stronger lately.  And I have to say, it was very empowering doing all those roundhouse kicks and uppercuts in class today!

May 1 

I can’t believe it’s already May.  I spent the day with a friend and our babies down at the beach in West Van, and it was so nice to feel comfortable with myself in that type of setting.  A friend of mine (whom I haven’t seen since the beginning of March) came over for a visit today, and she couldn’t stop talking about how great I’m looking, and how much weight I’ve lost.  It felt great to be noticed.  It makes everything easier. I’m really looking forward to going shopping for the wedding today.  I’m not down to a size 12 quite yet, which I’d hoped to be, but I’m still happy with my progress and am looking forward to picking up some new clothes for the occasion (any excuse to go shopping right? Haha).  I didn’t get in any cardio today, but I sure did work my arms with my daughter.  At one point I seriously thought my biceps were going to give out on me!  I’m going to go to a new boxing type cardio class tomorrow with a friend, so I’m really looking forward to that.  Looking forward to an exercise class……who would have thought?!?

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APRIL JOURNALS

April 30 

MARCH JOURNALS

March 2

Well, it’s day one for the journaling process part of the challenge.  Last week I had my first set of Progress Pictures taken, and now the reality of the whole challenge is setting in.  This is something that I both need, and want to do, and I’m excited to get started.  I think my biggest obstacle will be timing.  With a six month old baby at home it’s hard to make a schedule, so I’m going to have to be very flexible (but still diligent) with my workouts.  Food-wise, I think my biggest vice will be starch.  I’ll have to cut down on the pasta, rice, and baked potatoes I think.  Today I cooked a very healthy dinner for the family (trout, broccoli, and of course…rice).  Not a lot of exercise today, but cleaning the house after company while packing a baby in a snuggly really gets your heart rate up!

 March 3

Today was such a beautiful day that I just had to be outside.  Looks like it’s going to have to be yoga before bed tonight, as I’m really needing the de-stressing today.  I’m still waiting to get my eating/workout/cardiovascular plans for the month, so I’m playing it by ear for exercise.  Mostly Pilates, yoga, and long walks are my favorites since I can involve my daughter.  She’s such a great reason to go for a nice long walk on a beautiful day like today.  I think I’m going to have to start planning our meals a few days in advance.  I’m finding too often that we’re deciding what to eat at the last minute, and making less healthy choices.  (We, includes my fiancé who’s somewhat unwillingly being roped into my healthy new habits!)

March 4

I love being able to begin my day with physical activity, though it’s sometimes a battle.  Today I was able to get away with a full 35 minute intense yoga workout while my daughter slept.  I always feel stronger after my yoga practice and that helps to keep me on track for the rest of the day.  I’m still waiting for my eating plan from John, so I’m just eating the way I normally do for now, which isn’t really all that bad (if you don’t count the pancakes with grape syrup and cool whip for lunch today).  The rest of the day was healthy. 

So far my pictures haven’t made it up onto the site yet, which in my mind is good.  It’s good because the bikini shots I could definitely do without the whole world seeing, but I know it’ll happen pretty quickly so that’s not a lasting luxury.  Tomorrow I’ve got to try to get in some cardio, even if it’s getting out for a walk with my daughter in the stroller. 

March 5 

After reading through some of the journal entries for others entered in the challenge, it’s nice to see that I’m not alone in feeling the urgency to get underway with this.  Today I booked my first appointment with John, so I’m really excited to pick up my plans and get going!  I’m a little nervous though, and I hope the food plan will be fairly easy to follow.  I already have a protein shake every other day, and eat a lot of chicken and stuff like that, but I guess it’s just that curiosity is killing me. 

Today while my baby slept, I was able to jump on the bike for 10 minutes (which I know doesn’t sound like long, but when you’re racing against a sleeping baby for time I think it’s pretty good) and followed up with another 25 minutes of weights and Swiss ball exercises.  I tried doing push-ups off the Swiss ball with my shins balancing on the ball (like I used to do way back when) and was very surprised to find that 10 was such a big challenge for me.  Hopefully by the end of the month I’ll be able to do 20.  Other than that, I feel pretty good today.  I’m feeling a bit out of the loop because I missed the first two meetings, so I haven’t met any of the other “transformers”.  Hopefully that will change soon.

March 6

Today I took my daughter out to North Vancouver for a LONG walk with a friend.  We walked downhill 18 blocks to the Quay and then back up again for a total of 1 hour and 45 minutes.  And that’s with an 18lb baby strapped to my chest.  Wow, that felt great to do.  Plus it was nice to get out for some fresh air.  I am quite sore from my workout yesterday, especially my abs.  That tells me how out of shape I really am.  I don’t have the car tomorrow, so I guess baby and I will be out for a walk again.  I ate pretty healthy today too, so I’m happy about that.  Still looking forward to my meeting with John on Tuesday.

 March 7 

Well, I can’t say I got too much done today in the way of exercise.  I am SO sore from yesterday (all of my leg muscles hurt) and I’m still sore from the day before.  I’ll have to ease myself into the ab work a little more from now on.  I did get out for a 20 minute walk with baby in the stroller, but it was pretty cold out, so we didn’t go as long as I’d have liked.  Stepped on the scale this morning, and I almost fell off!  It says I’m down 8 pounds since last week.  I’m sure it’s just water loss or something and will be fluctuating, but still, it was nice to see.  I even put on a pair of pants that I haven’t been able to wear for a while.  I was a bit disappointed that my fiancé didn’t even notice.  Oh well.

 March 8

Well I can’t say that I accomplished much today.  Overall it just wasn’t a great day.  I’ve been feeling sick the past two days, but I’m loading up on vitamins so I hope it doesn’t hit me hard.  Hopefully I’ll be back on track tomorrow.  I’m going to pick up my plans tomorrow, so I can’t wait to see them.  Although I’m getting a bit worried about the supplies costing a lot of money, I’m really looking forward to moving ahead with this.  Today I found out about the deals that we’ll be getting from the sponsors, and I think that just rocks.  That’s great that they’re making this as easy as possible for us. 

March 15

 Well, today didn’t go quite as well as I would have liked.  For starters, my morning shake was made with 1% milk instead of skim, because my dear fiancé forgot which kind I asked for.  I bought my own today, so that’s taken care of.  Then I ran out of cottage cheese.  So instead of my morning snack being a full cup, it was only a quarter cup.  That pretty much threw off my day hunger wise.  I was hungry pretty much all day.  Even after eating lunch!  I guess my body needed more protein than that to keep me going.  I picked up some more groceries today, so I should be set for a little while now.  Still craving a sugar fix, but not as bad as yesterday.  Oh well, tomorrow is another day.  One good thing about today is that I got organized.  I hadn’t picked up a book for a food diary yet, so I’ve been writing on pieces of paper and my nutrition optimizer form (which is a great tool!).  Today I bought a book, and transferred all my scribbles into it, so I’m ready to rock tomorrow!

March 16

 Today was a bit hectic, but better than yesterday in some ways.  Instead of cottage cheese with my fruit, today I had fat free yoghurt, and while it tasted great it sure didn't keep me full for long.  I was so hungry an hour and a half before lunch that I had an oatmeal bar (I figured that would be a healthy choice after checking out the nutritional values).  But even still I've been hungry pretty much all day.  I'm eating all the food and I'm usually satisfied (though not always) when I'm done eating, but then an hour or so later I'm quite hungry again. And then tonight my schedule was thrown off, so I had a 5 1/2 hour gap between my lunch and dinner.  Wow, I've got to try not to do that again!  Back to the bike tomorrow, and I'm kinda looking forward to it! I feel like it sets my day on the right path.  This weekend I didn't have much cardio (except for a 20 minute walk with the stroller today) and my days didn't go well.  Maybe I'll have to start every day with cardio, even the weekends.  If that's what it takes to keep me on track, I'll do it!  Also, I was completely floored when I saw that John had taken the time to make comments on some of my concerns in my journals. That is absolutely one of the best motivators, to know that John is looking out for my well being, and is there with advice and encouragement!  Thanks John!

 March 17

 Day 6 has come and gone...I can't believe it's almost been a week! Well, it's getting hard to choke down a cup of cottage cheese, and I'm hungry quite a lot, but I can definitely say it's working.  I put on a pair of pants this morning that I couldn't ever get done up all the way, and not only did they do up, they are getting baggy in the legs.  I went for 2 walks today (and also did my cardio first thing this morning). Tomorrow I begin my weight training.  I can't wait to start building some much needed muscle.  I feel like such a weakling sometimes compared to who I used to be.  But I know it's coming, it's just gonna take some hard work first.  At least I'm on the right path now, thanks to Bodies n Motion!

March 18

 Well, it has officially been 7 full days of the challenge for me!  Today was my first weight training session, after doing 18 minutes of cardio. Because I started part way through the month, and my cardio plan has me at 29 mins by the end of the month, I didn't want to be behind, so I'm increasing by two mins instead of one to make up the difference.  I think my triceps are going to be sore tomorrow...they were killing me after doing kickbacks.  Well I'm still doing quite well with the eating plan, but I'm needing to be a bit more creative with my meals to keep from eating the same thing over and over.  Tomorrow I'm going to have a treat for dinner, kind of as a reward for eating healthy all week.  I haven't decided what yet, but it won't be too bad.  I hope that's okay.

March 19 

Well, today was a good day.  I started out with 20 minutes on the bike this morning, which again was a great start to my day.  I had a couple of treats today because I've gone a full 7 days (today is 8) following the plan.  I still made healthy choices for my treats, but I think they are deserved occasionally.  Once a week is good with me.  I'm not even sore today.  I can definitely feel my muscles, but they don't hurt, which is a good thing.  Those step ups are so hard to do!  I hope they help, but I'm sure they will.  My mom is visiting me for a few days, and she's noticed that I've lost weight, so I'm really happy about that.  Well that's all for today, and it's back to the basics tomorrow.

March 20

I'm almost caught up in my cardio times. Today I did 22 minutes, and tomorrow it'll be 24 and I'll be where I should be. Today was back to normal for the eating and workout plan. Tomorrow it's weights again, which I'm kind of looking forward to. I had the oatmeal for breakfast today, and I was dreading it after reading other people's comments, but it was so good I'm having it again tomorrow! I've been getting a little nervous because about one week per month I take my daughter to my parents and we visit. I wasn't sure how I was going to stick to my plan. Tonight I found out that my parents are trying to borrow a treadmill for me to use when I visit! How great is that? I'm totally appreciating all the support. Also, I'm proud to say that I'm down around 10 pounds since I had my assessment done! I'm wearing some tighter pants again and feeling good about it!

March 21

I missed my cardio workout this morning because I got a wake up phone call that had me out of the house for quite a while. I'm going to do it tomorrow instead and just sub today as my day off. During the day I really didn't feel like eating, so I had a protein bar with some grapes for lunch. I'm really liking the protein shakes lately and sometimes I'm very tempted to just have that for a meal....mmm...chocolatey! I've also been having watermelon lately because I bought it and I know it won't last long. I hope that's not a bad thing to have. I really want to go to Gators for the meet and greet and cooking tips (God knows I could use some!) but my daughter and I both got sick today. My throat is very sore...so maybe this cold has something to do with why I don't feel much like eating (even though I'm still hungry). I'm trying to plan to attend the upcoming fitness show and support Bodies n Motion and fellow challengers. I think it would be an excellent motivator. That's the day my mother in law comes to visit, so hopefully everything works out okay. For the past two nights I've still been hungry even after eating dinner, so I've had a cup of watermelon or an orange. I'm wondering if it's okay to eat fruit in the evening...it helps fill me up, so I hope so.

March 22

 I got the nicest compliment tonight.  My fiancé just out of the blue said, “you know, I’m really proud of you for what you’re doing with this challenge”.  I was blown away, because he doesn’t usually tell me things like that.  So that kinda made my day.

 Last night, we watched a movie and true to himself my fiancé made himself a gigantic (we’re talking at least two jumbo movie theatre size) bowl of popcorn.  Then he plopped himself down right next to me and proceeded to down the entire bowl.  I was very agitated.  I really wanted it, and smelling it didn’t help.  A few times I almost reached over for a handful…..but I didn’t!  I was hungry, but I didn’t want to spike my insulin levels.  Then today he goes to the deli, and loving man that he is, he brings home some focaccia bread for us to share.  Oh well, he gets to eat it all.

 I’m hoping tomorrow is as nice out as today because I need to get out for a walk.  I was about to today but then my baby decided it’s time to take a nap, so I did too.  I’m still losing weight, and I’m feeling better about myself every day.  I can’t believe it hasn’t even been 2 weeks….can you imagine how we’ll all feel after 16?  I’m excited to find out!

March 23

 When I got up this morning, I was looking for a pair of pants to wear.  I have this pair of Gap jeans that I haven’t been able to wear for a year and a half.  Well, I thought I’ll just give them a try…maybe next month they’ll fit.  Imagine my surprise when not only did they fit, they fit comfortably!  Woo hoo!  I’m so happy.  I couldn’t wait to write that in tonight’s journal.  This plan is definitely working.  It’s scary, but I’m almost looking forward to my next poke-prod session to see what my weight and measurements are.  I wasn’t nearly as hungry today.  I even managed to get out for a half an hour brisk walk in the sunshine.  I can’t wait to see the new recipe section of the site since I couldn’t go to Gators yesterday for the cooking tips.  I’m still sick, but at least my baby is feeling a bit better.

March 24

As today went on, I didn’t even realize that I didn’t have my two snacks.  I’ll have a protein shake with water before bed to make up a few of the calories.  This morning, riding for 25 minutes on the bike was SO hard.  Halfway through, my baby demanded to be held.  So I held her, AND I rode on the bike.  That was a really long 25 minutes.  But I did it.  I know it’s going to be hard again tomorrow, but I’ll do my best. I really hope my cardio time doesn’t increase dramatically next month, or maybe I’ll be able to do it in two sessions to make it easier for baby.  

 It’s really hard for me to fit in weight training.  I think I’ll have to try to get it done while my daughter is napping (when she decides to nap, which isn’t all that often).  I’ve been really diligent with the cardio, but I’ve got to get on track with the weights.  This was never a problem before I had my baby, but now I work on her time, so finding time for me (and time to clean) gets a lot harder.  Oh well, where there’s a will there’s a way, I suppose.  I wasn’t really all that hungry today either. 

Something I’ve noticed lately is that whether I’m hungry or not, as soon as the food is on my plate in front of me, I have no desire to eat.  I do eat, but I just sort of lose my appetite for some reason.  It’s definitely not the food, because it’s great.  I don’t know what it is.  I’m not sure if I should be weighing myself every day or not, but I am, and even after allowing for daily fluctuations, it is SO NICE to see the scale continually going down day by day.

March 25 

I couldn’t get my cardio in this morning, so I’m going to do it in a few minutes, followed by my weights.  Better late than never, right?  I did however stick to my eating plan, which I actually always do (with a few minor modifications).  I’ve found something that makes it easier to get through chocolate cravings too.  It’s those body smart calcium chews.  They are super low in sugar, fat, and calories, plus you get calcium.  I spoke with Phyllis tonight to schedule my next assessment.  I’ve got about two weeks to go.  I already know there’s going to be an improvement, but I want to see the numbers too.  That will sort of make it “official”.  Tomorrow is going to be a hectic day, so we’ll see how it goes.

March 26 

I’m in pain right now, but it’s not from working out.  I didn’t get in a workout today.  I was out all day, and I just got back from having a root canal.  So yeah, I’m in pain right now.  I’ll get back on track tomorrow.  Being out all day threw off my eating plan too, and tonight I can’t chew, so it was a protein shake for dinner.  I still ate healthy, just not as often as I should have, and not real food.  I’m not even sore from my workout last night (except a little in my abs).  That’s awesome, because during the workout (weights) I really felt it, and I felt like I was working the muscles really well.  I’m glad my body is healing itself quickly.

March 27 

Today I’m still in a lot of pain from my root canal last night, so it’s really hard to eat solids.  So it was a protein shake for breakfast, but I did manage to ‘carefully’ eat a wrap for lunch.  Dinner was soup.  It will sure be nice to be able to eat crunchy foods again.  Well, it’s short tonight because baby is mad, so until tomorrow.

March 28 

It seems that every time I get my heart rate up even a little (even walking upstairs) my mouth starts throbbing in pain.  So I’m avoiding my exercise for another day.  It’s actually depressing.  I am not at all liking not being able to work out.  Hopefully the antibiotics will help, even the Tylenol 3’s aren’t making it feel much better.  There, I’m done complaining now.  It’s been really hard to stick to my eating plan since I can’t really eat.  I had a protein shake for breakfast and lunch, so I really didn’t want one for dinner.  For the first time in 15 days, I had a little pasta (only one cup), and I had some soup.  I felt bad eating it, and didn’t enjoy it all that much, but I need food that I can eat without chewing.  It’s hard to get my veggies, so I’ve been having veggie juice instead.  On a good note, a friend stopped by tonight, and the first thing she said to me was “wow, you’ve really lost weight”.  Then she proceeded to tell me where I’ve lost it from.  Thank you again, BIM!  It felt nice to be noticed, and she hasn’t really seen me since I started the challenge, so I know she’s giving me a great perspective.  I made plans with her to go shopping for a smaller size outfit in May.  I have a wedding to go to, and she’s gonna help me pick out a sexy, smaller size in a regular store (no more plus sizes for me).  That is a reward that I’ve chosen for myself.  Not only to look good for the wedding, but to get the new clothes to do it in!  I can’t wait.  She asked me what size I want to be in by then, and I’m shooting for a 12/13.  Right now I’m in size 16 (it was 18 a month or so ago).  So I think that’s doable.  Wish me luck!

March 29 

I’m just about to sit down to an awesome chicken stir-fry for dinner.  Yep, that’s right, I’m eating solids again!!!!  And I’ve stuck to the plan today to the letter.  Tomorrow I’ll be incorporating my workouts back in.  I didn’t want to push it today, so I’m waiting one more day for healing.  But I’m feeling much less pain now, so that’s a bonus.  I hope everyone else is doing great this weekend!  Gotta go for now!

March 30 

I got back on the bike today!  I’m feeling so much better.  This morning I actually woke up before my baby, so I snuck out of bed and onto the bike.  I was only able to get in 22 minutes, but I think that’s pretty good.  I’m much happier to have done something than nothing.  I got a little off track tonight with dinner.  It was 4 hours between lunch and dinner because I had company, but I still stuck to the plan.  Mmm, stir-fry.  

So I feel pretty stupid today.  I was reading everyone’s journals and wondering why everyone was talking about Gators on Saturday.  I thought it was LAST Saturday, not yesterday, or I would have gone.  That really sucks, it would have been nice to meet everyone.  Oh well, next time, I suppose.  I hope everyone had a good time though J